To : Love

Today, and every time.

I thank whoever gave me this happiness of having you with me.

A genuine person with a pure heart. You showed me what love is. Now, I know that love is a sacrifice. Love is when you want to protect someone, love is your effort to be around me when I'm down. And an ear that capable to listen.

And after all, nothing compares to you.

Never in a million I ever imagine to have you hold me like that. Cheering up my day, boost my happiness level, and taught me to love myself more every day.

I wonder if you are not around here, am I capable enough to accept the good and the bad inside me?

Am I capable to hold the pain I had till I'm shattered by my own drama?

Will I survived?

I'm lack of sympathy, sometimes selfishness conquer myself and I become very heartless. I blame people for keep set up too many disappointment for me. Yet, I'm still learning to love me through the love I shared to random people. Sometimes, I lose my way. I cannot find the right direction that gets me through the dark. 

I can't love me right :(, I hurt myself, abandoned my own feelings. I can't close my eyes to stop looking at those who cause so much pain to me. I'm hearing them and take any words as a weapon to kill my own.

I'm so much believe that I'm unworthy to you. Whose gonna pick a whither rose with thousands thorn?

I thought no one , no one could ever accept me when they know the other side of me which is dark and undescribeable. But, you did. 

You showered me with love and affection, deep level of understanding, and many more.

I hope that you are not gonna stop to show me how to love you tenderly.

I hope we are not giving up for each other.

thank you~